God, these past few days have been tough and long.
I had a rough night yesterday. Didnt eat any melatonin. Didnt sleep well. My left ear was terrible and wet. Inside and out. I was so frustrated with it. I stuffed it with tissue and tried to sleep.
Also, yesterday night was terrible. I tried to sleep on my side and my left cheek started dripping ooze near my lips/nose. UGH. FK. It seems like last night was not as dry as i wanted it to be.
I woke up and received a text from my brother. He wanted me to go collect his parcel that was left just outside my apartment’s door. God Even doing simple things like these stresses me abit. It was hard just for me to fking get out of the bed these past week.
I woke up and seriously contemplated if i should shower. I think i should, cus my fking left ear is so wet, i dont know if its dirty or what. and my face. Some of the good skin feels kinda wet and oozy? FK. And i havent said that my scalp near the ears and at the back near the hairline.. they are kinda not doing too well and have some spots that ooze 😦
Also yesterday i was kinda upset that it seems my flare still hasnt peaked yet. I feel like i suddenly have so many red spots popping up all over my arms, chest, boobs, belly, legs.. ugh. FML. Ok i need to take it one day at a time.
So i showered and felt absolutely great. Thank god. It was terrible when i stepped outta shower. I accidentally pulled some crust off because my hair stuck to my face 😦 But thank god, it didnt waterfall ooze just yet. Looks pretty tame for now. I need to stop fking picking at my crust.
Also i applied for my credit card’s installment. Fingers crossed. Ugh. Im basically in debt now..
Also on diet, i am gonna lose so much weight probably in the next few weeks when this crust situation is on going. I can barely fking eat. But im finding lots of gratitude from a supportive mom thats been cooking me porridge past few days.
JUST 2 MORE DAYS TO NEXT TREATMENT ON THURS! I can survive wed. I can survive wed.