Tempting Freedom

I just realised my last post is dated 2018.

Tons has happened since then.. I had a bout of “bacterial overgrowth”(i think) on my foot, where the skin just started to ooze and ooze with no end, get worse, spread all over the feet and swell. I had to get 2 lympathic message sessions to calm it down. Oh god, rip my wallet.

Talking about wallet, yes rip. Rip my wallet. It is giving me a stern reminder that i need to work to even get treatment now.


I was reluctant to blog, because, i dont wanna jinx it again. 🤷

My skin:

Face: Cheeks has been the best so far. Today my right cheek tho, looks like it might ooze again with the redness rising. But my darling left cheek is dry and abit flakey. No complains as long as it doesnt start to ooze again. My dam left cheek tho, has a dark dot on it. I looked at it and it kinda worries me if it might be signs of a lyme bite. Ugh.

Arms: Legions that surfaced has calmed down again. Abit dry but smooth and healthy.

Fingers: Left palm is perfect. Right palm is up and downs. Today i ravaged it again due to moisture trigger… I was washing the celery juicer stuff, cant help it.

Neck/shoulders: Mild legions that surfaced seemed to have calmed down. Generally smooth

My skin was so good for my HK trip. I dont really know what caused this leap, but i was being conservative by not trying too much supplements that might give me a reaction. My cheeks were like so good and minimal oozing. I wonder if its really the celery juicing that i started. I started juicing 2 weeks before my HK trip and stopped during the 1 week trip. Can say that i am recovering from/in midst of small a flare(from glutathione and pineapple tarts? XD)  when i started on the celery juicing tho.

What i am currently doing:

  • Daily celery juice
    • I try to aim for around 400ml everyday, 30mins before meal or 2hrs after meal
  • Oregano oil supplement
  • Olive leaf supplement
  • Milk Thistle with artichoke & dandelion
  • L-Glutamine supplement (2g everyday, started 2mths ago? bottle finished today, not sure if i haz the money to buy another bottle and i dont feel like theres specific improvements)
  • Red Dragon Fruit (I eat 1 almost everyday which is about 400g+?)
  • Zinc Picolinate (on and off)
  • Roasted Dandelion Root Tea (on and off)
  • Pau D’arco tea (on and off)


I actually paused my probiotics and didnt eat as religiously. Havent been eating the vivomixx(VSL 3).

Its been so well im considering to re-join the workforce part time. But idk if the stress/cheating might kill me again. Ugh i dont wanna count.. how long.. i havent held a fulltime job.. UGH



I realise its been like 1 year since i last posted on this blog. I used to post everyday. Omg.

And exactly like 1 yr ago i had a face flare. Bingo. Now im having one too.

Gah. This is my place to come to count my blessings and take it one day at a time.

Pretty bad this time. Its so red and raw. Its like rock bottom. Horrible. You seriously forget your good and bad days so fast. One week of good skin day and you’re like “IM READY TO WORK FULLTIME NOW”. Then bam. flare. Vicious cycle all over.

Im so ready to work on my candida. I think my root of all evil is candida. Thru taking olive leaf extract past month the tcm finally says my “coat” on my tongue is gone. Good news as an indicator of damp! Also i noticed my finger legions were better.

I was also taking glutathione after much raves in the whatsapp group. Not much of any observation tho. I took 500mg daily up til… i couldnt take the upcoming flare anymore.

So i bought oregano oil extract, serrapeptase(overhyped i guess) to try. Who knew that i would be in sucha big slump now?

So my brother offered to cook me some pasta with gyoza and i ate it. It was full of chilli flakes and gyoza was pan-fried. Regret max. So i would say this flare took 2 weeks to build and explode.

I learnt quite abit past few months. First was the mad search about candida. Cos i realise i have this white discharge thats bothering me. It gets better when i take probiotics religiously. It must be some… bacteria thingo. So i tried olive leaf extract. Seemed to work. 2 weeks+ later its reduced.

Then i read about biofilms. And targetting the yeast. Enzymes. Serrapeptase. Serrapeptase tho. Its touted as anti inflammatory, blood cleansing etc but i guess its not the time to take it for me. I wonder if its the height of the flare or serrapeptase itself, but i oozed more when i took it during that short few days. But i did ooze alot even after i stopped taking it. That was when i recognised my flare.

I stopped olive leaf extracts midway when i read about TH1 and TH2 balance. Since i guess im TH2 and olive leaf extract worsens it. But hey i actually got better taking it. ????

And then i restarted. cos the discharges were back.

Fingers crossed that i will be recovering my sanity soon. So i can get back on track to trying the rest of conquering candida. I have Pau D’arco, oregano oil, olive leaf, digestive enzymes… gonna buy grapeseed extract and Syntol? Maybe candidase?

So also recently there was a stream on fb talking about it. It was by Grace and Ben. Ben’s approach to TSW was to 1. Detox better then eat better, then something about targetting specific eczema types. TBH i was impressed. I thought it would be full of loop holes here and there.

I have the oozy eczema, i am sensitive to heaty food, and i have histamine intolerance. Eating “good” is so hard. F all the high histamine food. All i see about healing this crap is bone f broth, which is high histamines that i cant eat. F.

Well back to the stream. It got me wondering and i was very interested to follow what Ben has to say. Then i read on the internet and talked to my tcm. Seems my tcm doesnt really put “detox” as what he recommends for first time TSW. Can understand why. Ben says in his stream that something about skin problems are indication of liver problems. So for it to get well it needs liver detox. Okay… I was reading around online and some websites said if you detox first and your gut is leaky, its only gonna make u feel even worse. This was what i didnt want when i started on my TSW journey. I didnt want to flare.

So how now, brown cow? I guess i should go back to working on healing abit of my gut again. AGAIN, i say. I felt like i havent made much progress this past 3 years. Its been 3++ years f dam it. When is my life crisis gonna be over? I have been too passive depending on my tcm for everything. ugh. I think tcm ultimately cant clear all the candida from my system. That period of time that was good was incidentally after a course of antibiotics. Boom. And then sometime later i had antibiotics flare. WTH. Now im not sure if antibiotics is good or bad. But just 1 conclusion: GUT BACTERIA.

So what im gonna do when im better from this raw face flare, is to try L-glutamine. Im taking 1~2 digestive enzymes during meals recently, so hopefully, less undigested food to aggravate my gut. and plz heal abit too.

I noticed it again tho. During periods of flare, my mental health can be down the drain. I feel especially jittery. Especially after meals. I can feel it. The surge. I dont know if its the heat of the food making me hot or the food nutrients itself. I get anxiety attacks too. Not the super serious kind but i can feel it. It makes me itch and then my body is tensed and sort of “spirals” from there. Gets worse. And i got to calm myself down. And during good times i dont get this feeling. During good times i seem to be able to handle stress better.

I raid(game) with my group at night and its just unfortunate that currently im in a period of flare. It reminded me of the last ultimate raid. You just want to stop and chill and not raid.

Can i talk about how bad my face is flaring? It drips ooze. The baddest-baddest-worst day: the ooze drips. Every few minutes. Its so raw and sensitive when any wind blows. How the f did i sleep? Yeah. How the F. Im reminded of the good times when my skin is intact and i could lie sideways to browse on my phone. Also i am reminded of the bad days where the ooze sliding down my face makes me jump awake and wipe it with towels. Gosh. Fingers crossed that this phase will be over soon. Past few days its been slowly getting better. Plz get better soon, my dear skin.

I forgot to mention that the start of this month my apartment block was painting and i realise my skin getting worse. But i didnt expect this tbh. My family painted the apartment interior and i survived with no flares. Is facade paint more toxic? :S The base coat smelled terrible. The colourful coat is less pungent.

I wonder if the jitters are histamine(neurotransmitter) related. Histamine from inflammation? Its not like my flare is from histamine rich bone broth. Its from chilli flakes i think. And maybe a over-indulgent month of coffee? SIGH. I was having lots of coffee before this flare happened. Then i stopped. Coffee seems to be contributory. Tis what my gut feels. But F ITS SO GOOD.

OK enough rants this time.


Day 628 – 1yr 8mths+ – Intestinew

This morning i ate a scoop of Intestinew. Fingers crossed that i dont flare, despite it containing something with crustacean, which im quite sure im allergic to. Its a white powder and seems it doesnt dissolve well in water. Well i guess its typical of protein powders. Doesnt have a strong taste or anything, but its kinda hard to get it down, perhaps its just my mental block.

Didnt sleep well yesterday. For once i didnt take anything yesterday. Didnt take any magnesium or melatonin. Because i felt like im taking too much of them :S Almost on a daily basis…

About melatonin: I bought the lowest 1mg dose, timed release off iherb (since it was cheap)> I tried it but it seems it doesnt keep me asleep at night. I still woke up and tossed and turned. Maybe i need a higher dose.

I realise my supplement cocktail is creeping up. So on a daily basis i eat these:

  • Quercetin with bromelain 500mg x 2-3 times
  • 60billion Metagenics Ultra flora probiotics 1 cap a day
  • Intestinew 1 scoop
  • Carlson ACE with zinc and selenium x 2-3 times
  • Vitamin D3 5000iu x 1 cap a day
  • Nordic Naturals Omega 3 Fish oil 1 cap a day (On and off because im afraid of a flare from it)
  • Magnesium 150mg (Depends if i wanna sleep)
  • TCM herbs

What i ate yesterday:

Brunch: rice vermicelli with long beans, cabbage

dinner: roasted pork rice

snacks: rice crackers, papaya, 2 envy apples, wintermelon tea with tapioca pearls, rooibos tea