I am so annoyed by my oozing ear. Where exactly is oozing? The top tip of my ear that contacts my hair and temples of my spectacles. It oozes then crust on my hair and spectacles. Very uncomfortable. It feels like something is gelling there and everytime my ears or something moves, i feel something is stuck and am so tempted to rub off the crusty ooze or something.
TCM isnt really helping that patch imho.
And i have another bad patch outside the ear hole. Its been oozy and red for ages! TF. Since dec 2015! When is it gonna heal?!
I am at a point in time where i can easily filter out meat and not feel super devastated about the decision. I think its been more than a week of no/few meat cravings. I think it really takes time (2 to 3 weeks) to reach this state where you no longer crave something. I think its the same with sugar. After 2 to 3 weeks, the cravings get less intense and stops.
But am i seeing results from eating a largely vegan diet? Yesterday there was the YUMMY DELICIOUS canned spicy pork cubes for dinner. I ate 1 small little cube with brocolli and tumeric pepper radish rice soup. I consider it an achievement that i didnt eat more of it. I LOVE THAT DANG PORK CUBES. One of the meat things i crave is another of 4finger’s BFF Soy burger.
On eating vegetarian food initially earlier i kinda notice my inflammation on face is lower. The cheek patch. Yes now its gradually getting smaller (i think. Probably. I didnt take pictures because. BECAUSE MY DAM FACE IS OOZING! depressing much) I kinda regret that i didnt take, so i didnt have a reference point. But i think its smaller. I think so. Now it looks abit like a right angle boomerang.
But seems the reddish and stuff on my hands/fingers and palm is getting worse. Sigh. Is vegetarian food not helping? My right index finger is raw AF. So is my right thumb. Today my left hand and fingers is slightly better. But seems the condition of my fingers and palm is one step front, one step back. Kinda like tango. Up and down. So it makes me wonder if i should go back to eating meat. :S
Oozy patch on cheeks & stares
Am i also more resistant to people’s stares now? Yes. When people look at me for more than 1 second, I know they are starring at my cheek. Any longer, or they make eye contact with me and the cheek again, i give them the “TF U STARING AT?” look and go ahead to ignore them. Not worth getting stress hormones over people i dont give a dam about!
Things to be happy about currently:
GOOD SLEEP. Good sleep is golden and necessary for sanity.
What i ate yesterday:
lunch: Mcdonalds large fries + rice with cabbage, beansprout and long bean
snacks: slices of papaya
dinner: rice with tumeric, black pepper, brocolli and small piece of canned spicy pork cube
What i ate today:
lunch: rice with long bean, cauliflower and cai xin?